The last two months of my life have been difficult ones. Without getting specific, I’ve been suffering from health issues that have kept me from the work I love… radio. It’s all I’ve done since high school, and it is what I know and love the most. To suddenly have that ripped away from me has been nothing short of devastating. It felt as if, overnight, my greatest strength had become a handicap. I am no longer able to do what I excelled at: expressing myself and communicating. I learned, and am still learning, that my job was not just a way to pay the bills. It was an outlet for my emotions, both good and bad, happy and sad. I couldn’t see all the people I was talking to, obviously, but I knew they were out there. I felt their presence and was glad for their company. When my illness robbed me of that gift (which I never took for granted, by the way), I felt as if I’d lost my entire family. What’s pulled me through this difficult ordeal? Well, the kindness of strangers and true friends, for one thing. And, the other thing that has ALWAYS pulled me through hard times…
There have been days where I have simply wanted to end it all. The weight of my burdens threaten to break my back and my spirit. However, I don’t allow my sorrows to steep in silence. There is always music playing.
A couple of tunes, in particular, have been like giant Angel Wings that have lifted my spirits when my heart is sinking to the deepest depths of despair. One is Pink’s “Try.” Even though it’s about deception in relationships, the following lines in the catchy chorus motivate me:
Just because it burns, doesn’t mean you’re gonna die.
You gotta get up and try, try, try.
The other song that gives me strength is “Carry On” by the group fun. It’s been described as “an anthem” and a tune about “perseverance in hard times,” and accurately so.
If you’re lost and alone
Or you’re sinking like a stone
May your path be the sound
Of your feet upon the ground
I need to hear these words. I need to believe them. Enjoy these videos. I hope you get something positive and uplifting to take away. Pass them on to others who may be feeling down and dejected.
And carry on.